2015... January to March

The first and maybe the last entry for this year. Sambil tulips entry ni, samba dgr lagu photograph- ed sheeran

Jan...
I had my birthday celebration, we went back to kampung and it was fun! the first birthday with my lovely Baymax. Pergi penuhkan perut kat MELETOP Steamboat and odw balik KL jumpa Balqis. Masa bulan ni, first trip to Perlis. Naik flight KUL-Alor Setar, Driver from Seberang Prai ambil kitorang an site visit to TPM.

Feb...
Nothing much happened this month, wedding at Lakai. Congrats Ila & husband. and a big congratulations to my insurance agent aka ex-schoolmate (MRSM Qtan) and they're expecting Feb baby. May Allah bless you all with His Happiness and Blessing. Oh, and Abg Hattassan got engaged!

March...
The first job trip to TPM, and for the love of the life, Syah picked me up in Perlis. He came all the way from KL-Perlis alone. On our back to KL, we stopped by at Penang, slept over at one of the hotel with Balinese interior design (bed just like they had in Twilight movie) and rain shower! we took some pictures at the murals and guess what. It was an enjoyable trip although our production was failed and contaminated. We really enjoyed Perlis, Penang food such as pulut mangga, tomyam, meet tulang etc. We went to Cameron too for Pojie's wedding.

dapat gambar kahwin, hati pun ada senang :)

gambar, video semua pn dah dapat.

Tq to edy & zaiful for helping us to capture the beautiful moments of our day. you guys was so talented. the pictures were tremendously beautiful and i still cannot believe i am that gorgeous on the day :)

so, i highly recommend uolss (for those still looking for official photographer & videographer) to try from zaid dong & zaiful de'szast...

p/s: syah ckp, gambar yang dh jadi cm kahwin kat hotel je gaya nya... (bukan mmg ke?) huahuahua

transition phase

Alhamdulillah syukur... semua nya berjalan dengan lancar. despite all the imperfections, afterall, we only human. chewah, kemain ko bermadah helah disini. Selamat menjadi puan kepada diri sendiri. now ada lebih banyak hati perlu dijaga... dan semoga Allah mengurniakan maturities kepada kami dalam mengendalikn urusan ini.

sebak... lebih kepada lega. (jujur sgt ke statement ni?) mungkin jugak sebab bila lupa pakai cincin kawin pun dh tarik muka, ampun kn sy pakcik... sy masih dalam probation period. but i will try my best to be the very best wife for you, the very best daughter in law for your parents and sister in law to your siblings.

tq to all for the dua, wishes and thoughts that only Allah would pay. May Allah our ease our business and grant us Jannah. InsyaAllah. Tq for realizing the wedding plans and tq for all the support, commitments and gifts. Your efforts were highly appreciated and no other words can describe our gratitude.

And for you, thanks for marrying me. thanks for choosing me as your wife, your best friend and most importantly thank you for accepting me as part of your life. May Allah grant us his Jannah, love and forgiveness. i love you with all of my heart till the end of time....

p/s: lagu tema yang bermain di fikiran adalah: ... (rahsia)

15 days to go!

only 2 weeks left and there are still so much things to be settled. boleh plak tgk kalut malut ni aku emosi pasal cerita jauh dari cinta... aku rasa macam nak marah kat heroin tu walaupun aku rase aku pun akan buat bde yang sama.

p/s: lagu tema dia pun buat gua tacing...

55 days to go

55 days before we tied the knot....

pasang lagu Sedetik Lebih...
lipat kad yang dh siap 2 minggu lepas...
list out guests dr Office, SKBians, office mates lama...
print list names and potong and tampal kat envelope...
order cokelat drpd Anas....

p/s: yang penting, petang ni nk jumpa Amna... auntie rindu ngn amna... :)
p/s/s: agak kerinting rambut memikirkan monitoring nk buat just few days before the Day! berusaha!

fragile heart

aku confuse betul dgn diri sendiri... hati fragile gle.. rasa teruk sgt, and the most terrible part is, SNM has to deal with all the emotional failure aku... gle kesian, but what else should i do? i'm sorry sayang for being the most jerk this 2, 3 days...

sambil nk tulis post ni pn blh mau melalak. ntah species ke musim kememeh kau ni...

Projek

nadey recommend baca buku Projek Memikat Suami... dh baca 3x. br paham maksud nya...

200 days

more or less, lebih kurang tu la hari sebelum hari big day tu! masa ni sibuk la nak google mana2 kedai butik mantin yang tak dicriminate org gemok gedempol cm aku... walau mcam mana pn, niat nak kurus sket tu mmg ade... ibu dh bising serupa makcik kungfu hustle tu suh kurus.. tekad! petang ni lari 5 km ats treadmill... huaaa... pnt2... (padahal br blk dr beraya umah Karen, mkn kfc n cake birthday!)

boleh tak nak cakap, x tahu nak mula dripada mana! venue & catering dh settle (Alhamdulillah)... igt someone pernah cakap, kita nak buat bde baik, Allah akan mudahkan urusan kita... yakin! positif! dan sebab tu aku rasa yang lain tu mcm payah n tak fall into the pathway... Setiap perkara yang berlaku, ade hikmahnya...

ok2, ibu n ayah dah settle senarai jemputan, now it's my turn kawan2... hehe... sambil survey2 kad idaman malaya.... sambil ricky2 pelamin n baju besar yang available! awww... no i can see some lights penetrating on me... (abaikn ayt padaiyappa ini)... so for now, kne settle kn bde yg besar2...

at first, x de la gelabah sbb pk cm lama lg... tp tetibe pk, 6 bulan? terus gelabah tak tentu pasal... padahal, kalau lek je, lg senang settle... biase la, kalu malut lalut! gitu la die...

nak g tgk baju kat diana bridal... tapi sapa nak teman? pakcik gemok tu? ke ibu? hehe

Penang Again

Bukan gua. kalau gua, mau melompat kegirangan sebab dapat borong jeruk pak ali. hahaha.. tapi beliau yang di.. org yg dh chop gua tu... (rupanya itulah status gua sekarang ni... whatever pun, not available dh lg kn?)

padahal pergi tak sampai 100 jam pn... kecoh jugak la minah kememeh ni.. mula la medula oblongata ni merungkai semua joget kenangan manis... haha... nak buat macam mana. angau! (pull stop)

p/s: safe journey yang...

Tudung hitam

Ade satu perasaan yang indescribable bila pakai tudung hitam... mungkin sebab muka besar atau sebab muka gemok... tapi itu la perasaan bercampur baur yang muncul acap kali pakai tudung hitam...

2014... new year...

ok, masuk tahun baru lagi... Year 2014... ade mission besar yang perlu dilaksanakan... wish me luck... semoga segala urusan dipermudahkanNya...

resolutions for 2014? hurm,. let me think first... Nak pergi MAHA 2014 dgn yg tersayang... (boleh kira 2014 resolution tak?) tak boleh pn AAK? hahaha why bother bak kata azwan ali...

of course la menjadi manusia, anak, kakak, pekerja, kawan, jiran yang lebih baik daripada sebelum ini (sama macam tahun2 lepas)...

CUMA yang bezanya tahun 2014 ni, ade beberapa perkara yang tak ada masa 2013 dulu...

Perubahan 1: Jadi Bos (tahun ni ade staf dh... yg best dapat staf plg senior, assign kepada yang paling junior..)  walhal ade sorang je staf (compare kat tempat keje lame, ade 35 org staf)...

Perubahan 2: Jadi ehem2.... (dulu 0/3, upgrade status jadi 1/3, pastu 2/3)

that look

When I look at you, I recognized that decent look. and you were such an experience. What we shared is the one that I will never forget. I will remember you for who you are. Since the day we met, I barely forget the look. I still reminiscence the look. As if our eyes had joint and nothing will break that, ever.

It was a great time when we were together, no doubt! You've helped me through this and I owe you big this time. Yet still, I can't hardly forget the look by your eyes as you were leaving. You looked at me and smiled. We had our eyes attached, then. And the rest were the memoirs of the eyes.

You were always there whenever my heart called you. You had to sense the calls. You never ignored the calling even though you had a day already. I was an addiction to start a day over your "good morning" and "goodnight" wish. 

How I wish I could lend your eyes and I wish for a lifetime look-on-me.

How I wish I could get the look again, and again.

How I wish you could  look at me the same way, eternally.

How I wish I could photograph the look on papers and keep them till the end of time.

How I wish I could tell you how much the look mean to me...

Thanks for such a lovable and inspiring look you have given to me... Hope you will always be. 

kegigihan melampau

minggu yg PLG hectic.... 4 reports kne siapkan... yet still data masih terumbang ambing di lautan lg... bunyi cam poyo, tp bila mereka keep apologizing about the tasks, aku sengih n in fact, I did thank them for the exposure... thanks a lot guys for giving me the experience and taught me more knowledge. It was really a great experience working with you guys, and is always... guys, exposure cm ni bukan boleh bli kat kedai mak minah... mintak 2 kilo cara nak buat spray dry...

bila la nk start buat report en sepol, rase penat sgt ari ni....

Yesterday is history

yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery and today is a gift! SNM dh tdo rasa nya... Terima kasih Ya Allah di atas hadiah yang kau kurniakan ini. I am so grateful for what I have. It will always be the greatest gift, besides my loving family, faithful friends... discovering my soulmate being the most interesting yet adventurous journey in my life... Thank you, Allah.

He read my tiny little yellow book. happen to be, i had wrote something that was specially dedicated to him! and i did mention him as SNM as i jotted the words. i cried not because of the shyness, i cried because... he smiled at me, and his face was still in shocked+blessed+hounoured! as far I could remember, it was one of the precious moment of us, ever! i couldn't imagine more, the expression on his face and I know, i had make him a day, that day.... smile sayang, I know its from you heart!

status berubah (2/3)

Since awal bulan 3 hari tu, status berubah 1/3... but, pada awal Nov tu, status aku berubah lg kepada 2/3. Alhamdulillah. :)

aku tertarik dengan caption Lan kt IG beliau... "mak gua dh cop die utk gua!" pinjam Lan, caption ko... :) :) :) semua nya berjalan lancar, despite semua dugaan yang berlaku sebelum kejadian bersejarah tu berlangsung, kita HADAPI dengan senyuman je. bukan ke seronok dpt kenal keluarga lain, lg seronok bila 2 keluarga dapat merge together! ber-ronok-ronok la family2 ini bila bertemu (ayt skema, sebab gembira-eh, ade kaitan ke?)

kini, semua nya perlu dizahirkan kepada kertas perancangan agar pelaksanaan nya dapat diimplentasikan... (sumpah, aku semakin suka eksploitasi bahasa dengan tatabahasa yang tinggi maknanya)... kalau g umah aku sekarang, akde satu kertas a4 putih yang dah dilipat 4 utk part Dadak, Ayah, Ibu, dll (merangkum Adik sebenarnya) haha. semalam bermula adegan perbincangan meja lonjon (ala, kat meja makan biase tu) baru wat draft costing utk sepanjang majlis nanti... gua yg old skool ni mmg la pakai pen n kertas wat mind-map, tapi ayah dgn spread sheet excel nya tak dapat dipisahkan! well, Ibu sentiasa menjadi most active participant sbb DHA ibu slalu berhubung, walaupun kurang glanglioksioda (sebenarnya Ibu sgt suka tnya soalan). harap2 kertas tu ibu tak buang, sbb kalau ibu buang, abs la "Proposal Perkahwinan Ainaa Abdul Kahar" tu. haha

dh start kne gigih Diet seimbang & kumpul dana ni! harap dpt kurus dan menawan, sbb nk pki baju cantik nnti (fantasi gle!)

Angau kemaruk

melampau gila kali ni nye perasaan... kalah masa nak pergi US dlu. padahal lg lama... (mungkin sebab masa tu nak pergi enjoy, kali ni nak pergi kerja!) buat kali pertama rasa macam kurang best nak pergi out station.. macam ni kot perasaan ayah masa dlu2 nk tggl kn kitorg dlu... aish... ngn ibu x leh jalan, ngn ayah gout tgn, aduh... serba salah jadinya. hurm... ngn pak cik pergi penang... aku g selatan... pastu die sambung terus g cameron. be strong ainaa... pk kn yg 2 nov tu. ok??? pk kehadapan ainaa!

away and apart

rasa macam tak sanggup nak sebut... kena pergi jaga pameran kat JB Ahad smpi Khamis... OTK! (sila muntah dengan ayat seterusnya) How do I survive a day without meeting you? bahana cinta lokasi sebab susah nak berpisah.... hurm... I'll be missing you. more and more... sebab bukan setakat tak jumpa smpi khamis... tapi smpi isnin mggu lg satu... (its not this coming monday yet, everyboy!) huaaaaaaaaaaa... melalak, merengek dan bakal menyaksikan muka x-smpai-seposen la nanti... mula la nak meraban kemaruk jiwang yang overboard nanti... sedangkan tulis post ni pn dh bergenang ayaq mata cheq...

p/s: boleh bawak bekal gambar x? agak2 Karen nyampah tak tgk keadaan nnti ibarat sotong keluar drpd air laut?

repost: rendang

rendang

tgu:
rendang
cincin contoh
bekas vision ibu

p/s: malas nak taip sbb nk tdo dulu... karang bgn....

punya malas gile manaip smpi thap diatas tu... hahaha tgu rendang dapat juga kek oren beserta bahulu gulung yg tak digulung (ni assumption je, sbb belum test). hehehe...  nak kena bincang ari ni... Ibu suh bincang... ptg amek ucu kt lcct (harap2 dapat la ape yg diidamkan) hikhik...

kenapa la internet macam siput ni... kalau kak anis nmpk ni ure bgga sebab Senah dah terpengaruh ngn teh o ais beliau... hahahaha... tgh ari ni En Sepol blanje lunch

rendang

tgu:
rendang
cincin contoh
bekas vision ibu

p/s: malas nak taip sbb nk tdo dulu... karang bgn....

proses kegigihan bermula

ok, sangat gigih dan laju menaip entri ni sebab temperature almost turun... (ok, kena bangun kejap dan off heater)... biarkan stable dulu sebelum si kecil2 powder itu melompat2 keriangan macam monyet di zoo sebab kesan elektrostatik... hehehe... alhamdulillah 2/60 ada 58 lg yang diperlukan...

ops, sakit perut!